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Yuan Ting

Like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound

This week hasn't been very good for me.

I keep feeling like my studies are pulling me down. I'm not dedicated as I was say a month or two ago and I'm not being as focused as I should be. This is the crucial period before the common tests and yet I am going out even more than I used to be. My ME proposal got rejected on the last (official) day of Term 2 and I cried. I cried over academics. Sometimes I just feel that I put in more effort into my studies than what I get back. Because I'm not really considered naturally smart, I have to work harder than most to achieve what I want. This worked out in O Levels because the syllabus was much simpler in comparison but in JC, if you're not smart to begin with, life is going to be very, very hard. I'm struggling in simple topics in Math (which, let's face it, has never been stellar) and Physics looks like the next subject where I'm going to start on a downward spiral in. This is why I absolutely despise (or at least) judge those who are smart but lazy and never do their work because I know how it feels from the other side and I would kill to be on theirs. I know I would work even harder if I had that advantage but well you can only work so hard if you don't understand much.

I still have absolutely no idea what is going in Lang&Lit and only the barest ideas in Economics. The June holidays was supposed to be the time where I started to sit down and focus on these subjects but more shit just keeps cropping up. Next week is four days of school and two days of band concurrently. Exco interview is next week.

Band was the only highlight this week. Sectionals on Wednesday were pretty good and I felt like I improved a lot during tutorials on Saturday. Ironic, how the thing that makes me depressed all the time was one of the high points of my week. 
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Yuan Ting
26 May 2013 @ 02:25 pm

Grateful to have joined ACSI, grateful to have the opportunity to participate in WoW 2013, eternally grateful to have all the memories and time spent with the class in Cambodia. Such experiences are unforgettable and I know that WoW will definitely be one of the greatest highlights during my time in ACS.

Seeing the way the locals led their life in the village really impacted me quite a bit. It sound a bit preachy, but I really feel bad about the way I lead my life in Singapore. I complain, I whine, I always demand for more. In Cambodia, the children don't even have it half as good as me, yet they are still (mostly) contented with life and they make the best with what they have. What we did for them was way too little and I suppose that can only be the case with a time-frame of 4 days, but it really taught me a much greater lesson about life and I can only hope and pray for the kids in Cambodia that they will eventually find their way out of this poverty cycle.

I'm still undecided about my path with social work after WoW, but what I know is that I want to do something again. I don't want to continue living this sheltered life in Singapore without giving back.

That being said, I have absolutely no regrets about WoW, even looking back at the situations which arose, the times I spent with the girls were amazing and I got to know many members of the class much better as well.

we da tourists

Angkor Wat

sweet smiles withLeah

bus partner Carmen

happy happy Eli

jumping with the badass Kar Lye

suspicious bridge sessions in the lion's den

last day in Cambodia where we were supposed to be shopping at the market but Leah and I decided Iced Lattes at a cafe was more appealing instead
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Yuan Ting
14 April 2013 @ 10:33 pm

living day by day with only a vague plan for the future

The next three weeks are going to be taxing, but I have a feeling that it will be worth it in the end and that it will pay off. I hope. 
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Yuan Ting
16 March 2013 @ 10:40 pm
So far, it is manageable... Or at least, the workload isn't ridiculous. But everyone says that changes completely in Y6 so I'll try to enjoy as much as I can now.

The most important thing now is surprisingly not my studies but rather SYF. I really feel like the weak link in the wind ensemble currently and I will work hard to remedy that, but time is running out. There's only 1.5 months left to the actual day itself and I can't help but feel that I won't reach the standard that I should before then. I don't want to let everyone down but I know that I myself am not incredibly good so it really is going to be a lot of hard work between now and 3rd May.

I just listened to our recording during sound check and if there is ever a time for me to get depressed, I just need to listen to it. Sarabande was so bad it was on the verge of being a joke. But I know that it will only spur me to work harder. This isn't NHSB. It's not SYF 2011, being in a big band where I could hide behind Kester & Kimberly. I'm on my own now, my sound needs to be projected. Luckily, I have the help of my amazing tutor and a really knowledgeable senior who, while intimidating, will definitely help me out so that I can improve and well, not let the band down.

I have to be more independent and more regulated in my practices. Make the effort to know my pieces and now screw up. If I've already listened to my part 1000 times and know when I am supposed to come in, why do I still screw up!? It's very much a mental battle and at the risk of sounding weird, I need more self-esteem. One will never be a good player if they have no confidence. You may play well but if you don't believe in yourself you will never succeed during combined and eventually the actual event itself.

It's not like the pieces are that hard either. :/
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Yuan Ting
24 February 2013 @ 09:40 am

Orientation has ended and classes have started for 3 days already. I miss my OG so, so much. Everyone predicts this will happen, but there's no real way to prevent it from happening. I've been very blessed to be part of OG11 and find so many crazy and fun-loving people in the process. hGLile my class is not as bad as what other people have, I can't help but feel that it's vastly different from the spirit of my OG.

What my OGL said was true. Orientation really is one of the best parts of your time in ACS.


Went for my first band prac yesterday as part of IB Band. It felt great to finally be back and to be playing my instrument again. I may bitch and moan about it, but ultimately I love band. It was what kept me going in Sec1&2 and it was what made me grow in Sec3&4. IB Band is very different from NHSB, yet so similar in ways. After one practice, I can already tell that I will like my time there very much and I can only hope that everyone feels the same way. 
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